Thursday, July 17, 2008

Ponderings...

Good Morning! Do you ever just wake up anxious? Well, I do. This morning I awoke in a sweat over a bad dream where I had just said something totally rude publicly and was so thankful when I woke up that it was just a bad dream and that I didn't have to try to fix what I had just done. Then I went from that panic to another panic as I lay in bed trying to get a fix on the day before me. I began to think about Davie and school this next year and scheduling and bedtime, which has never been our strength. I began to get completely overwhelmed...then my mind traveled to the impossible job of actually successfully raising my baby girls...completely overwhelmed with their woundedness as adoptees...completely overwhelmed with my age and fatigue...ok, so you get the picture. I came into the kitchen and started my coffee and sat down with my Bible and my journal and began to pour out my heart to my Abba. I gave Him my worries and shared my heart with the One who loves me. Then I opened my Bible to the book of Joshua b/c I plan to attend a Precept study in September on this book and thought I would just begin reading there. Well, my God, my Abba, the lover of my soul met me this morning. The book of Joshua begins with the death of Moses and the call of Joshua to take this stiff necked people into the promise land...oh, and they had to cross a mighty river first. Basically God called Joshua to an impossible task. He calls him and then He promises him "I will be with you; I will not fail you or forsake you."(my heart begins to hear this...)Then God says to Joshua, "be strong and courageous...and then again, "only be strong and VERY courageous." Then He instructs Joshua to hold tightly to Him, via His word and to not turn to the right or the left...meditate on the law night and day...do what it says...fill your very life and breath with who I am and what I say...and then you will have success. And then again He says, "Be strong and courageous! Do not tremble or be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." You can just imagine the encouragement my soul felt at God's words. He has been calling people since the beginning of history to impossible tasks....and then by His might and power...using them to accomplish them. Amazing. Later He even promised them "rest AND the land." Basically everything they would need. I was so encouraged and touched by God's personal and relevant word to my heart this morning. So, I'm wondering, what impossible task is God calling you to? I can bet there is one ....as my David said this morning "He's kind of been known to do that"...well, as you hold to Him and do not waver, remember that the Lord your God is with you. Be strong and courageous. The Lord will not fail you or forsake you. I pray that those words take root in your heart today like they have mine. I'm off to do the impossible! Much love, Jackie Sue

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

Oh how sweet He is! Thanks for sharing. I always feel I am doing the impossible...trying to raise two boys to love Him when I am an imperfect example!!! I appreciate the reminder! Love ya, Christie

Cassie - Homeschooling Four said...

Great post! I love hearing the way God speaks to you. So encouraging!

Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing that specific struggle of feeling overwhelmed! I often feel like the task that I am called to(helping to care for my mom and ministering to my dad) is way more than I can handle. Then you add wife, mother, ministry, and work on top of that. I feel that I don't have what it takes to do all this and do it well! I am learning to draw my strength from HIM who knows and loves me the most. I honestly feel it is a blessing and an honor to care for my mom-she is the best and has always been a great cheerleader and encourager to me! I so appreciate the close relationship we have for all of my 45 years! I praise God for the times when he blesses me with little glimpses of her even if it is far and few between! So when I do feel completely overwhelmed and the task that he has called me to is impossible, I will remember what HIS words in Joshua said. Thank you for sharing your heart. Love< Valarie

Karin said...

so good. Thank you. We have felt left in this black hole for the last year and 1/2 and sometimes we need a reminder of TRUTH.. Thanks for that!

Karin

Anonymous said...

OH! Amen and Amen
thank you, friend, for sharing that
not only has God spoken to you...He's spoken through you today
isn't He just AMAZING?!
love and prayers for your journey
lisa e

Anonymous said...

My Dear Miss Jackie,

Thank you so much for your words of today. I was having some similar doubts about life, will I ever get a teaching job, will Dora be a good person, ect. Your post helped me face my day and life a bit stronger today. Thank you! It truly is a blessing to know you, and I thank God every night for the families that I was able to connect with on this amazing journey, not only to my daughter, but of life as well. Have a great day, and thanks for being the great person you are!

Phil Neppl

Anonymous said...

My Dear Miss Jackie,

Thank you so much for your words of today. I was having some similar doubts about life, will I ever get a teaching job, will Dora be a good person, am I strong enough to be a good Dad, ect. Your post helped me face my day and life a bit stronger today. Thank you! It truly is a blessing to know you, and I thank God every night for the families that I was able to connect with on this amazing journey, not only to my daughter, but of life as well. Have a great day, and thanks for being the great person you are!

Phil Neppl

Karin said...

I already posted but OH! I LOVE YOUR NEW BACKGROUND!!! Cute! And thanks for the encouragement and the link.

Steph said...

I think we all struggle with that at some point...adopted children or not!! Thank you for the encouragement. I love you
Steph

Sunday said...

This post is such an encouragement. Thank you. I can absolutely identify with the "impossibles" in my life. This post was a breath of fresh air. Sun

Julie said...

I loved this post Jackie! I can so relate.... thanks for sharing!
Julie :)